When people use us, take advantage of us, walk over, manipulate, disrespect us… Etc. The only person we should really be mad at is ourselves. We show people how to treat us by how we act and treat ourselves.. If people use us its because we’ve inadvertently made it seem acceptable. Once we have enough respect for ourselves, we’ll be able to set boundaries on what we will/won’t accept/tolerate. No-one will respect you if you don’t respect yourself.
When you show/tell someone something important to you and they don’t respond how you’d like, perhaps just saying ‘ok’ ‘cool’ or ‘nice’ so you automatically assume they don’t give a shit, instead of thinking about the countless other reasons for their response and your mood goes right down cos you feel stupid for sharing it and like noone cares about you and so you decide to go into a shell and keep everything to yourself and just be reserved and quiet, even if only temporarily.
THE WORST FEELING EVER IS WHEN YOURE SO ENTHUSIASTIC TELLING SOMEONE SOMETHING AND YOU CAN JUST PHYSICALLY FEEL THEM NOT CARING AT ALL SO YOU TRY HARDER BUT YOU JUST CANNOT GRASP THEIR ATTENTION SO YOU SLOWLY FADE OUT AND LET THEM GO BACK TO DOING WHAT THEY DO AND YOU WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR TAKING TIME OUT OF THEIR DAY TO TELL THEM SOMETHING YOU’RE HAPPY ABOUT
Each mind is a different world
I know its made me stronger…but honestly sometimes i just get so tired of having to do this all by myself. Sometimes i just wish i had someone supporting me. Encouraging me. Being there for me. Someone I could trust. Someone who actually cared about me. Someone who actually loved me. Flaws and all.